Comin' out of the dark...

Alright, so I know I have basically been in hiding for two months. I'm not sure exactly why, but I guess I haven't been too happy with life and didn't exactly realize it. I spent the rest of August wrapping up Jenny Wiley then to the beach with my family (which was loads of fun). After that I headed to Nashville for a gig which didn't quite work out because of company financial difficulties during this economic time so I've been at home for the past two weeks and have one more before I head to my next gig in Wisconsin.

Home is always a bittersweet time for me because it signifies transition. This is where I go before I start something new, and unfortunately, I haven't learned how to rest in order to prepare for what is next. The older I get the more I cling to the familar and hesitate toward the unknown; perhaps, it's because my life is comprised of so few familars. My life is constantly new places, new people, new skills, and rarely do I find a recognizable comfort zone. I've a notion that it is not yet time for my comfort zone, but I do believe it is not too far away. Chasing a dream is the path I've chosen and while the journey is often wearisome and discouraging, I do believe the transformations that occur along the way may be just as important as the dream's fulfillment.

When times gets tough, hold on to hope --" in the hearts of men, it lives on lean pasture".
Tristan and Isolde

p.s. Thank you Tara and DJ for being there -- ups and downs :) I'm not sure what I would do without both of you in my life. Someday I hope you meet because you're made of the same stuff.